Thursday, June 24, 2010
These days I feel so restless in class, I can't seem to pay attention or get anything done. My mind is so messed up and I feel so shitty. People keep spoiling my plans and my mood. I don't know man. I'm so confused I hadn't been able to do anything well and I keep getting frustrated easily. So Tuesday night, I thought by asking I would have a proper way of continue my life. So I did and I said that I would get out of his life in he answered my questions. In the end, I found out that he was sick and tired of the relationship and he didn't even miss me at all. Wow, but I expected it. I didn't cry surprisingly? As much as I want to, I couldn't. It didn't hurt until yesterday. I woke up and it feels like shit. I was so tired and drenched out by him. Went to GF but my whole mind was filled with him, him and only him. How the fuck did I end up loving him? Plus, some people there always anyhow show me attitude like as if I owe them or something. I always try to be nice and keep my smile up but really what do you want from me? Hadn't I been nice enough? Whatever lah, and it just add on making me feel even more miserable. Nobody appreciates me, I'm not expecting much but fuck I'm human. And plus in the condition I'm in, I don't even feel like doing anything, I can't even play pool properly. I feel like an idiot. I'm supposed to do shit, but I don't even feel like moving just feel like sitting in my room and crying. I feel damn lonely. No ones there to really listen to me. Sigh, life sucks.
Sometimes we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons, and still love them even after all the heartache because most of the time, we can't pick who we love. And even though we know we shouldn't love them, we do and always will, because there are just some people in our lives who will get to us for reasons we can't explain, even when they shouldn't.
ACCEPTANCE 8:17 PM
